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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

Sewing

I have somewhat gotten into sewing. I don't want to do fancy clothes but quilts and crafty things.

I have finished my first quilt. It is a baby quilt. Far from perfect but I did it almost all on my own. I had help when cutting the fabric (Thanks Jeanne). My friend Ann was there to help the finishing it off.

I have started a larger one for me. Now that I finished a baby maybe this will be the incentive to finish the full size one. Goal. To finish the squares for the full size one by September 1st. I think that is doable.

So on September 1st I will post if they are done.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Feelings

This week has been a week of emotions that I do not want to acknowledge.

First is a coworker last Sunday witness a tragic accident of a horse that had stepped out of the trailer at a stop sign and the driver continued dragging the horse to death. My coworker drove up behind the truck/trailer after following a brown lines for about 2 miles. It took her driving around the truck and stopping for the the truck driver to know what had happened.

Since then Diane has not slept well having nightmares and at work she has had to be pulled in after a few hours on the road because she could not think straight. She has been crying and not eating. I am not sure how to help her. I suggested counseling because that helped me. My friends also helped. I want to do what she needs. I will help anyway I can even though right now it is just prayer.

I know I have never witnessed anything like that but her emotions and reactions brought back memories of my assault a couple of years ago.

It is amazing what your mind can do to you. I can totally understand the feelings that Diane is having and yet seem to have to relive them again. This time I know what to do and have not done that yet. For me there is more emotions going into play.

I am being pressured into meeting the girlfriend of a so called friend. She is visiting from South Carolina and wants to meet me. Both him and her are asking when I can meet her. I am not sure I want to I can visit online with no problem but face to face I just don't know.

Any suggestion on what to do?? I just don't know.

All these have been dwelling in my mind this week and I know that I have been rude to at least one person. Thank God she forgave me.

Lord help me be the person you want me to be and do Your will not mine.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Saturday

The week has been good. I started a new shift at work and hours have been good. Free time that I don't know what to do with. Have read 3 books this week while at work. Down time is good and boring.

Don't know what this weekend will be but heading out to start my Weekend.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Fish

I cleaned the fish tank today. Even changed the gravel. The water is so clean. Bubbles floating up and the fish playing in the bubbles. They are also seemly playing tag. One will be down low and as the others swim over head it will dart up and tag the others.

Sitting here listening to music and watching the fish swim. The frog (kermit) is just mellowing in the back with the algae eater.

There is just something so relaxing watching fish and listening to music. Yawn must be time for bed .....

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Sunshine


Saturday so far a day of sunshine and walking. Walked to Sorticulture at Legion Park. Very wet ground to walk on but beautiful plants and art work. Saw a fuchsia the size of my palm of hand. Boy I remember popping the small ones and getting yelled at by mom as a kid. It was all I could do not to pop the big one, but I behaved.

I then drove to Arlington to Show and Shine car show. I was so great to see all the old cars shining so bright in the sunlight. I was taking pictures of a candy apple truck and overheard the people behind me say that my hair was the color of the truck and shiny too. It is kinda fun to have red hair. : ) My favorite was the old mustang.

I spent the rest of the day just wandering Arlington and Smokey Point. New gps, new gravel for aquarium. My fish are going to hate getting the aquarium cleaned but will love the new rocks.

And to think this just tops off the excellent evening with friends last night. A little shopping and ok braeaking a chicken at the store and then a good movie with laughter. Looking forward to Sunday and what it brings.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hmmm

The song stuck in my head.




To God Be The Glory


To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in.

Refrain

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood,
To every believer the promise of God;
The vilest offender who truly believes,
That moment from Jesus a pardon receives.


Great things He has taught us, great things He has done,
And great our rejoicing through Jesus the Son;
But purer, and higher, and greater will be
Our wonder, our transport, when Jesus we see.

Monday, June 7, 2010

How do you say NO to God??

Why is easy to say no to God but when asked by other it is so hard?? I cannot say no to often to people when they ask for help. I love to help others. When God asks or pokes you the answer most of the time is NO. I don't have time, I don't want to do that.

I have been battling a situation that I kept saying no. God keeps poking and sending messages to answer. I spent my three day weekend last week in prayer and I relearned that it is not go to say NO to God.

The big lesson reminder was Jonah and the whale. I know that I did not want to disobey but that was what I had been doing.

So this weekend I took the step to follow Gods plan for me and talked to someone I had not face to face talked to since all hell broke loose in April.


God had everything planned out. So Sunday morning I wanted to talk to Jeanne about this but because of both of us were busy I did not.

I went to the gym and met up with the person I have ignored for 2 months. We worked out and then started talking. After hour and half I asked if we could go and get something to drink cold preferred. So we went to Safeways Starbucks and got drinks. While waiting for the drinks I went to buy TP and in line aBeca and Joel showed up and told me the Hiseys were coming to shop. This was good for me our hardest part of the talk was coming and I had some support if really needed.

I saw how God worked in me and I was able to remain calm, did not yell except for once, and was able to express views and ask and answer questions.

As I have heard alot lately This was my God thing. Lesson relearned don't say no to God.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Friendship

I knew our friendship would be forever,
the day I began thinking of you
as family.
Like family we don't question
whether or not we'll be there
for each other - we just are.

We've discovered a kinship -
a bond linking our hearts,
just like family.
No matter where we go or what we do,
we're never without each other's
loyalty, support, and caring.

That's friendship at its best.
Friendship that most people experience
once or twice in a lifetime, if they're lucky,
I, without question,
am one of the lucky ones
because, in you, "friend"
and "family" have come
to mean the same.

M.E. Miro.

A Hallmark card that says it all

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Working

I love my job and am very grateful that I have a job. I enjoy helping disabled and the elderly get to where they want and need to go.I also enjoy not being tied to a desk. Yes I have traffic to deal with but the views are priceless at times.

What I am having a problem with is my coworkers who grip and complain about their hours or lack of hours. In getting a split shift once in a while. In the world today, with the economy the way it is should we not all be satisfied with what God has provided for us. I am. I see this being able to survive on my paycheck and not get into debt.

I am able to help others if needed. I can get around to where I want to go and when I want to. I have to listen to coworkers grip daily. I don't want to get into that habit. I just want to slap some common sense into them. Am I so different with this attitude of gratefulness??

God does provide.