Friday, March 30, 2012

So last weekend I got the prividlege to take pictures at my friends, daughters wedding.   I got to do my favorite activity.   Photography.  

 Rehearsal had family members and the wedding party.    Fun times and set up.  
Also a great sunset that night

The Groom

The Bride

The couple

The girls 

the guys

In the woods
The wind was cold but blue skies and sunshine.

Fun times for the camera 

Mr and Mrs

the color purple

first dance
With a full day of activities the pictures, the wedding, the reception. Take down.  All were tired but very happy.    

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Life's Ups and Downs

What a week so far.  It has been emotionally up and down.

Monday was pretty good.   I got a route out of Smokey Point and saw people I have not seen in awhile.

Tuesday was going pretty good.  I got to have lunch with Carla.  Let's just say lunch was fun.

We all have people in our lives that care enough to make you look them in the eye while they lecture you.   Yes that happened at lunch.   Thank you Judy for caring so much you pulled the Mother Card out and lectured.  

Yes I know I need to take care of me but sometimes I can tolerate pain very well.   Not for 8 months.   The dull constant pain just wears on you.    To say the least I had a very bad attitude the rest of the day.  I did get a appointment scheduled.    

Wednesday totally uneventful.  Day went well. Night slept well.

Then Thursday happened.  I had my Dr appointment for 4:20 today and had to get more lab work done before that so I only worked a half a day.   Got to Group Health and picked up prescriptions and got the ticket for the lab.  Waited for 10 minutes.  During that time I got a call from Group Health  my Dr went home sick and my appointment would have to be rescheduled.   So go the lab work done.  To vials of blood taken.  Then down the hall to the Dr window.  The next appointment he had was for a week from Friday (30th).  I took it.   Really, you call to reschedule and when you do it is a week away.    I am not looking forward to the unanswered pain.  

Emotionally, I finally allowed my self to break down and cry, scream, slam doors, and love my cats.  

I relive some of the stress I needed to go to Snohomish and get cat food.   Bridges Pets is like a small zoo.  I picked up the food and then just wandered.  As I wandered my phone beeped.  My sister texted to see what was up. I told her and she gave me permission to scream.   As I went into the reptile room the worker there was pulling out the python, he asked if I would like to hold it.   I did.   What an experience.  The last snake I held was a garter snake.      I toured the fish section and wandered out to the birds and rodents.  They had a couple of dogs.    Bought my stuff and headed to the car.    I needed something to eat.  

Drove to Lake Stevens and visited Taco Time.   While there my friend texted me.   I have to say she is the one person I can talk to even if it is text or email.

So with my sister, My best friend, all my coworkers and cousin all supporting me I still needed to scream.   Of to Langus park.  

I will usually   walk here with my camera, but no camera today.   I used this time to walk with God and have a conversation.    It was productive and very tiring.  

There are sometimes in my life that I don't like being alone.   This is one.   A shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen.   I know that my family and friends are there but I hate to ask.  So with a teddy bear and two cats a good cry.    Things are looking up.
 God is so good for the people in my life.    Thank you all

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Nervous Times

So off to ramble/

Some stuff going on in my life have me worried, nervous, not sure of myself.   My friends daughter is getting married this weekend and she has asked me to take pictures.

 It is not as if I have not taken pictures of events but I don't think I take good pictures of people.

 Give me a flower or scenery or animal and I love to take shots of those.

When I take pictures of people take quite a few with the thought that one might be good.

I can get shots when it is unexpected,
but people  posing shots not so good.   
The day of the wedding I only will be taking pictures to supplement the photographer.  I just have to look at it as a fun time.   Getting to see people I don't know get stressed.  Watching the little ones just be themselves around relatives from out of town.   I just hope that I can do good.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Nothing to Prove

Nothing to Prove by Phillips, Craig and Dean

Has a song lyrics ever affected you to the point that you just wanted others to know about them.

This song has for me.   It has made me think alot about what my parents have taught me and how it has affected who I have become.   It also brought back some great memories.   Thank you mom and dad.

Nothing to Prove

You taught me how to ride a bike.
How to swim and how to fish
To see a star and make a wish
Said its ok to make mistakes
Just don't get stuck in yesterday
Forgive, forget and move ahead
"Cause life is what you're livin' in
Now you're gone and all I have
Are memories I hold dear
But if I am quiet I hear your voice
Still ringing in my ears

Saying live with no excuse
Love with no regrets
Laugh a lot and leave this life
With nothing left unsaid
Make this world a better place
Don't be afraid to cry
When it's finally time to say goodbye
There's nothing to prove,
 Nothing to lose 
Nothing to hide

You said life cannot be measured by 
The place you live, the car you drive
The thing that counts the day you die 
Is who you are and what's inside
So tell the truth, don't ever lie
Integrity at any price
Your word's your bond, your highest prize
So guard it closely with your life
So many things I learned from you
About life and love and play
But I learned more by how you lived
Then what I heard you say

Saying live with no excuse
Love with no regrets
Laugh a lot and leave this life
With nothing left unsaid
Make this world a better place
Don't be afraid to cry
When it's finally time to say goodbye
There's nothing to prove,
 Nothing to lose 
Nothing to hide

I only want to live with no regret
I laugh alot and I leave this life
With nothing unsaid 
Make this world a better place
Don't be afraid to cry
When it's finally time to say goodbye
There's nothing to prove, 
Nothing to lose
Nothing to hide

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Rambling of the week

So, I am not one for posting creative posts.  As my blog title says I ramble.
So here I ramble on

Today might not be to different.   I just have a long week and a long February ( no pun intended to this being leap year).

I found out this week that a friend and coworker is moving out of state.  She was a partner in crimes (hanging out).   Will miss her but with technology we will be able to keep in touch.  After all she is one that once in awhile I can beat on words with friends.

This week I also got to meet a new Dr.   Mine at Group Health moved on to better things for him not for me.  So the new Dr is going to be great.  I don't like Dr's to much since 1st grade.   I know long time to hold a grudge but you get stitches without being numb.  Both internal and external stitches  with my dad holding me down. It has taken me a long time to like to go to the Dr.   I have gotten better I have only kicked one Dr so far and it was his fault standing where he was when he tried to drain a cyst that was not a cyst and it hurt like heck.   My reflexes worked. I kneed him.   Dr Lenny Smith is actually a PA.   He really listened and reviewed my chart.   I did notice that he could not spell well on the computer.  We laughed about that Drs are known for bad hand writing but bad spelling on the computer is that not what spell checker is for?

I have had problems for 5 months so far and he is the first to not immediately go to appendix.  I had a CT scan in October and they said it was a cyst.  Dr Smith is thinking it is fibroids.  So on to an ultrasound.   A visit coming up to Group Health in Bellevue.    In the mean time I am getting really tired of the pain.

So Sunday, after church, lunch and running a errands I came home and was on my bed playing with Katie.   The next thing I saw was the clock reading 3:20   AM  I slept for almost 12 hours.  Guess I was tired and tired of fighting the pain.

It is funny all the different comments people have when you say you have had abdominal pain for 6 months on and off.   Yes, I am getting ready to enter the great menopause, Yes I still have all the female organs,  Yes, I still have my appendix, Yes, they have checked and rechecked for kidney problems and stones. and Yes, my gall bladder is there and no stones.   I am just so ready for someone to tell me what is causing the pain and do something about it.

 So that's my ramble.