2010

So I have avoided blogging this month. Busy time and very family oriented time.

2010 has been a very fast year, time just seemed to fly. So friendships grew and some parted ways but family has been there through all. Family not just what I was born into but family of friends who have made my life so much for the better.

Time will continue on and so later a longer post

Happy New Year 2011 may we all be richer in Gods love this coming year.

Emotions

How many words can describe and define you?



This past week has been full of many words and alot of the deal with emotions.



So starting the week last Sunday enjoying friendship and fellowship with close family friends. The best way to start a week.



Monday was full of different emotions, tired, frustration, embarrassed, anger, and ended in laughter.

I got into my first accident in the bus that was my fault. So and embarrassed that I was stupid enough to cut the corner and hit a large rock. Angry with myself and having to deal with coworkers teasing. I ended the day laughing with them and letting it go.



Tuesday more teasing and laughter.



Wednesday was disappointment leading the way to frustration.

Oh how can you walk around with a smile and not really showing what really is going on. I can do it fairly well. I know that my eyes and give it way to those who know me well.



Disappointed in my self set in for most of the day. How could I have been so careless. Why do I not ask for help when needed. Why do I try to do everything myself. If I don't ask for help am I not letting someone else receive joy? I am so much more comfortable being the helper and not the receiver of help.

Thursday was much better. It was a day of lists. What all do I need to do to be ready for the bazaar. Have I covered all the bases? Do I have all the volunteers lined up?

Friday was great so ready to end the work week and get started on the weekend.

Saturday was a day of rest and enjoying the kitties. They had their first visitors Heather and Julien and Riley stopped by. They ran with the boys. They also went to work to visit. Kyzer is a smart little a Kittie, had to use the litter box which was at home and jumped in the garbage can, did his duty and jumped out then look up with a look of " I did it."

So how many emotions do you go through in a week. I forgot excitement at my friend birth of her granddaughter. Love you all.

New kittens

Here are my new kittens





This one is Katie Ann

The black one is Kyzer

They have so far really been good. Hope that lasts.

long

I have had 4 long days at work this week. Pay off 3 day weekend. : )

26

26 days to prepare, execute, and have fun at the bazaar. I really need to step up and get volunteers. I need to get ideas from others on how to make it better. Is the layout good, should things change. What to do, what to do.

Onward and forward not looking back.

deja vu

So about 10 years ago I had severe stomach pains and after getting to experience some medical procedures and see a specialist surgeon, They could not find out what was wrong. The pain went away and I got pink eye.

Now I have fought pain for about 3 months. Severe enough again for Dr visits and tests and specialist. This was in July and August. So September and October paying for the visit I have had the pain on and off. What did I get yesterday Pink eye and no stomach pain.

I just have to laugh. Is this going to happen every 10 years?

31 days

31 days

Count down to the bazaar has started in my mind. So much to still do. So much to plan yet. It will be done.

I really don't know why I have volunteered for the last 3 years to cordinate the annual bazaar but God has His plans.

I am a follower, a behind the scenes helper not a leader. Leader defined as a person or thing that leads. I hate to lead. Let me help you. It is so hard to ask for help or volunteers.

I feel really good about the bazaar. New Chef. New ideas. New people sewing.

I am looking forward to cooking with Becca, Sewing with the ladies. Setting up the trivia room with Mari Dee. Working with Lorna and price things after the morning ladies have set up. Then them getting mad at us. We just giggle. It is times like this that make the set up and worrying about the bazaar fun.


31 days to go...................

ahh

The end is here. A week that seemed so long. Would Friday ever come?? It is here!!!! Work day over. The joy of turning the bus off and logining out. Paper work turned in or for today put in the folder to go back to base later. I got to work out of Lynnwood today with the early start.

Which meant early home and weekend sooner. After a pit stop at Joanns I am home and just going to sew tonight then Saturday clean the kitchen.

Have a good weekend all.

Thought from one tired bear

This week has been so tiring to me. Not to sure why other than last few weekends have been so busy and this one will be too.

It is only a 4 day work week but to have long days 9 or 10 hours long. Don't know why I took a vacation day than. Got the hours in already.

Yesterday was a wierd Wednesday. Long day and the to church for congerational meeting.

Tuesday was to long. Drove almost 250 miles around Snohomish county.

Monday, well lets just say Monday.

I am so thankful for the beautiful weather but am looking forward to rain, wind, cold.

Thursday bummers

Got up this morning to a beautiful sunrise. They have been gorgeous all week. Started working and the clouds rolled in and it started raining. Kinda like my feelings today.

We have known for about a week that our CEO Phil Sullivan was dying but he died last night. He was at home and his wife was with him. He was a good friend. We joked alot during my splits. He would say something smart and I of course had to return it. Others looked at us like it was wierd, and employee and the ceo giving each other crap, but that was our relationship.

RIP Phil you will be missed.

Saturday doings.I

I have decided to clean out the place. 8 bags of books (check in car ready to go) rest of car filling up ( working on this.) One dresser gone. Shelves gone. Fish tank moved. Can I say I am tired.

song that was on my mind.

This song was playing in my head all day long.


Seattle.

When it's time to leave your home and your loved ones,


It's the hardest thing a girl can ever do,


And you pray that you will find someone strong and good and kind,


But you're not sure what's waiting there for you.





The bluest sky you've ever seen is in Seattle,


The hills the greenest green in Seattle


Like a beautiful child growing up free and wild,


Full of hopes and full of fears, full of laughter,


Full of tears, full of dreams to last the years in Seattle,








When you find your own true love you will know it


By his smile, by the look in his eye,


Scent of the pine trees in the air, never a day so fair,


It makes you feel so good that you could cry.





The bluest sky you've ever seen is in Seattle,


The hills the greenest green in Seattle


Like a beautiful child growing up free and wild,


Full of hopes and full of fears, full of laughter,


Full of tears, full of dreams to last the years in Seattle,





If you ever fall in love with a logger,


There is something you will have to understand,


Far as much as he may care, you will always have to share


His love with his green mountain land








The bluest sky you've ever seen is in Seattle


And the hills the greenest green in Seattle


Like a beautiful child growing up free and wild,


Full of hope and full of fears, full of laughter,


Full of tears, Full of dreams to last the years in Seattle, In Seattle,





By Jack Keller an Ernus Sheldon.


F

a working weekend

So Here I go going to clean and purge the apartment. Ibufren is going to be my friend.
HI HO HI HO OFF TO WORK I GO>>.......

Tuesday. What a day. So many frustrations. So many prayers. Many answered.

Fall Sightings

I was just thinking about fall today. As I was driving west on 228th (from Bothell to Mountlake Terrace via Lynnwood) I was coming down the hill looking out towards the Olympic Mountains the hill in front was covered with green and brown trees. There amongst them was 1 lone very colorful red maple. From a distant it looked like a picture that would make a great jigsaw puzzle. To bad I was working and could not get a picture.

Family Trees

Have you really ever thought about your family tree.

We all have Mothers and Fathers, some sisters and brothers. They, your siblings, get married you then have in-laws. They start have kids. Your nieces and nephews.

Your parents have siblings. Your Aunts and Uncles. They are married so more Aunts and Uncles. They then have kids, Your cousins.

You all get older. You lose some to divorce, and some die maybe some just disappear from the family for reasons of their own.

Others get married and start having kids. Now you are into 2nd cousins, great nieces and nephews.

Time keeps going on. Seasons change with your family tree. You get along, you fight, but you love each other no matter what.

I have lost some of my family in my lifetime.

I never knew my grandfathers or grandma Nash, I cherish the time I had with Grandma Gunn.

Step grandma Evelyn was not to big in my life but she was a great English lady who had a couple tea parties that I remember from my early years.

Aunts and Uncles have pasted on.

My Mom and Dad are both gone. I do miss them. But memories and pictures are great to look back on. You can really see your parents in your siblings.

Last October I lost my brother in law. Now yesterday got word that my last Uncle died. I am feeling a little bummed out. I was just beginning to get to know him. He was my Moms only brother and they some differences when I was young and they did not speak or visit.

I am thankful for facebook. I got to know my cousin Kathleen, and my uncle from chatting with them online. I saw my cousins Linda and Micheal and his family this past July.

We all have busyness in our lives but need to take the time for families.

I am really blessed to have another family too. one that has been there for a lot in my life also.

I am trying to be better about talking to and doing things with my family (even thought they can be a challenge) because we just don't know how much time we have with them.

I love you all.......family and friends.

Answered prayers.

Everyone says pray about it,God answers all prayers. Yet, there are times when it seem ridiculous to ask for something that does not seem much. Hannah messaged me today about going to the Puyallup fair. I had to say no. I did not have the money. I felt really bad. It something we have done for a few years and I love going with her. So, I prayed, as I changed out of my uniform and put on jeans I found $40.00 in the pocket that I totally forgot about. Fair money. 1st Prayer answered. Still a little concerned but texted Hannah and we are going. Meeting up with my sister Nancy and niece Sarah to carpool down.

I headed out to Granite Falls for my friends Anns birthday. To help her baby sit her grandkids.
They are 6 years old down to 4 months. They are a handful but fun. Her daughter Katie was there (1st shift) . As she was leaving she handed me 4 tickets to the Puyallup fair. Exhibitor passes. She gets them at work and could not go this year so she gave them to me to use. 2nd answer to prayer.

I just love it when God takes control. : )

Saturday's Rambles.

So I got to sleep in, Whoo Hoo!! Wide awake at 6 am. A hour later than normal.
Started the day with a bible study. Psalm 139
Just to know that Our Great God cares for even the littlest detail in our lives is so uterly amazing. He know when I sit, stand and even my thoughts. He must have great entertainment on the thoughts of people.

As I read, and go to verse 13 I really thought on how He made us. Fearfully and wonderfully made by God. I could go for a tag on me saying that. No I won't get a tatoo of it but it just reminds me of the tags people sew in clothes.

As I continued reading and got to verse 13, I really started thinking of my feet. Two feet, ten toes, that support me. They take alot of abuse. Walking, running. balancing all the different ways they are used. My feet have taking me on many, many walks. Pushed the petal down in the car for hours on end. Have been cut, bruised, blistered, and dirty. They have been tired, and yet always ready to go. Just to think that God made them for us to do all of this. : )

So I end this ramble with

Search me O God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in my and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23:24

Wednesday

Good Wednesday to all.

Just a note to say absolutely nothing important. Not much going on except work. So

Good Wednesday All

Run away or Run to??

I seem to deal with lifes problems by running away instead of facing them head on.
So Friday night I found out that a friend lied. I have tried to be a friend to this person for few years and the last several months have been rough. Do I keep trying to show him what a friend is or give up. I thought God wanted me to show him but he just does not know what a friend is.

We had talked about doing something this weekend. So we planned to go to Leavenworth and then head up to Chelan and on to Winthrop and west on Highway 20. He cancelled. Told me something came up. Told my sister that he had to much homework. Told his "girlfriend" that he thought she would be upset if we went out for the day. So three different reasons to three different people. Duh did he think I don't talk to my sister? Did he not think that "girlfriend" and I don't chat online? We do. The girlfriend said that she told him to call me, that she does not have a problem of us going on trips and spending time together. He does not call. I can handle most things but lying is not one I do well with. I try so hard not to lie, to accept responsibility for my actions but lie to me and doubt and lack of trust comes in to play.

So Saturday I just ran errands and then went to work for a Slurpee time with my coworker Erika. It was an evening of laughter and I needed that.

Sunday comes. I go to church and was going to stay but he came. I chose to run before I said something that was not appropriate for church. I headed east. I took God on a road trip. Just Him and I. I sang most of the trip and He did not complain. my off tune or wrong words. He just listened and let me yell and scream.

First stop was the fair and saw Mike Cummings show his sheep. Also saw how I did in the photography exhibits. I got 2nd place with my cow and snail pictures and 3rd with my flag.

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I left the fair and drove to Leavenworth, I just kept going. On thru Cashmere, then
Wenatchee. Saw alot of orchards and fruit. Apples, Pears, and peaches. Farther north along the Columbia river saw many wineries.

As I drove I observed God's creation. It is unimaginable how He created the land, in all its different textures. The water how it comes down in the rain and flows to rivers and streams. Onward to the oceans and lakes. Waterfalls along the side of the road were not flowing fast but still following the path laid before it. Got me thinking how God has laid a path for our lives and how we try to run in a different direction is never a good idea.

More of his creation was along the side of the road. The cows, sheep, coyotes, and a bobcat all were observed.

Trees beginning to turn color, Evergreen trees in the different shades of green.

God really gave me a Sunday school lesson and sermon all in this drive.

I got home. Still don't know what to do but willing to do Gods will.

I love the Lord.

Lessons learned

So, I have really learned a lesson. I will trust God and my friends and not just anyone. Once was a mistake, Two was stupidity. Three was just plain stupid. Never again. I will do God's will and go from there........

My weekend

This past weekend was our churches woman's retreat. Great place: Ocean Shores, nice home and view of the Pacific ocean.

What happens when 11 or 12 women of varies ages get together. Laughter, stories, crying and a whole lots of love and also snoring. : ) We had beautiful sunsets, walks on the beach, treasures found by some, alot of sharing and getting to know each other better.

I really enjoyed Cheryll Kelly asking each one of us our testimonies. To hear all the different ways God brought us to Him is so unique and special.

The topic that Jeanne spoke on was so good and convincing that I for one really was effected by what the topic Sin.

Yes we all sin and fall short of the glory of God,
and I know that Sin is any want of conformity unto, or transgression of, the law of God.

So why do I continue to commit the same sin?

I am so very envious of most of my friends. I covet something that alot of them have and I don't. That leads to being jealous. Jealous that I can't and don't have what I would like in my time (like now) and not Gods time. I think why do I have to be the one who gets to watch others and never be the one out there.

I just want something and know that it has to be in Gods time and not my time. I am trying to understand why I have had a taste of it and yet never get all of it. Is it God teaching me a lesson or the devil tempting me?

I have to let go of the envy and jealousy and be content with what I have. I have the best friend that I could ever have. She knows me to well. I have family that I was born into and the family that I have picked and they picked me to be in.

I need to be enjoying all of this and letting go and replace the envy and jealousy that I have with ways to praise and glorify God.




Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed!

Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, Who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.

When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.

The unexpected

Have you ever gotten something in the mail, snail mail not email, that came from someone unexpectedly. I got a card from a friend who has known me since I was 14. Paula is like a mother to me. She and Doug have prayed for me since I have known them. I was the quiet, shy one in Sunday school who knew the answers and would not talk. See what answer to pray is I now talk. Ok write more than talk. So, 32 years later she can still surprise me and the card she sent says and means alot to me.

She wrote : You will probably never know just how many lives you touch by serving the Lord in the special way you do- but hope you know what a gift you are to us all.

I have struggled some with service for the Lord lately and this just gave me the nudge I needed to want to serve Him some how. Just knowing that God is the one we serve is a great privilege to work for Him, He is the perfect employer.


Blessed are they who serve the Lord. He will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people.... Hebrews 6:10

A Very Good Saturday

A good day mixed with Sunshine and friends and family.

All started with Ellie and watching a couple have wedding pictures taken in the bar parking lot across from church. It was still a little cool. The bride and groom only had eyes for each other.



Until the limo showed up. Then the whole bridle party was looking at the limo.





As they drove off Ellie and I talked about why take picture in the parking lot of a old bar? Did they meet there? Why would you want your wedding picture be in an alley in downtown Everett when there are many parks with flowers, trees, and mountains and water for background. But alley with dirt and grime?? They did look like the enjoyed it.

It was then off to Cameno Island and church picnic. Pat Raymond opens her house every year, ok I thinks her kids open the house to us every year. Timothy drove the bus and bounced us out of Everett.

Onward to Cameno Island. It was a kinda uneventful ride north except for Timothy rising in the drivers seat for no reason. So after a stop at Burger King we headed west to the beach.

Arriving at Pat Raymond's Ellie and some others headed down to swim and the rest of us just to enjoy the day. Perfect weather to just take a walk, a ride in a boat, wade in the water or hang out and chat.





So what is a potluck picnic without food? Some good choices came, and went fast by all of us going through line and then finding spots to sit and eat. Yummy



To end the day a bunch of us went to the beach and instead of rock skipping contest it was who could throw the tennis ball the fastest. Laughter was heard. Pictures were taken. An all around excellent day with a gorgeous sunset painted by God for us.

Weeks ending. Morning started with the bus I first got the copilot (computer) would not go online. So started my route late. But finished on time. I got done at 10:50 so weekend started.

The time between getting off work and a Dr appointment was spent in prayer, worry and sewing. Got a Christmas present for one of my nieces done. God and I talked alot. I got to the appointment and since it was a new Dr paperwork was filled out. Got the co payment paid and sat down to fill out the paperwork and was called back. Never did finish the paperwork but blood pressure and pulse were normal. Questions answered, information given and the wait was on for the Dr to come in.

He came in 15 mins before I was scheduled. I got to see my ct scans, He pointed out my appendix, gall bladder, and all other parts. Then said they all looked fine. No blockages, no inflammation. He said up on the table for the poking and probing. He found the area that hurts but not the cause. Gall bladder is the primacy suspect but pain has been decreasing so he will wait to do ultrasound. The secondary cause would be irritable bowel syndrome. Which he would change my diet for a few weeks to see if that cleans it out. If the pain gets to be unbearable then I get to do to the emergency room. Boy that sounds like fun.

I am thankful that the pain has gotten less, but would really like to know what is really causing the pain.

The joys of working with people.

It has been a long hard day. When I got to work and saw my route for the day I just wanted to start over.

Onward I went. Did my first 2 pickups and went to the Lynnwood park-n-ride to transfer and the other company was 40 minutes late, that took care of one of the people I have problems with.

Continued on started running later. I just kept moving along. Got to lunch and had it Mill Creek with a couple of guys from PUD. You know the big vehicles all park together. Not to bad for lunch entertainment. Continued on. Did great until 3:30.

When I got to a church to pick up a guy, He was standing there with his pants down to his ankles. Can you gross. I did. He pulled them up and then they fell 3 more times before getting him on the bus. Yuck. On the bus he started talking dirty. I told if he could not talk clean then don't talk at all. (waiting to see if I get in trouble for that). He was quiet the rest of the way.

When getting to his place he is door to door because he is blind. He stood up and down went his pants. He finally started walking to the door holding my arm. At the door he said that he wanted to show the world his whole body. I told him not in my world.

The rest of the day I was in and out of pain. In a way I cannot wait until Fridays appointment with the surgeon. I just pray they find out why. It is the not knowing that has me upset and afraid.
So starting humming this and then singing it. I know I need to trust and I will !!

’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
And to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus says the Lord!”
Refrain

God's Wonder

I was out running errands today. Out to Monroe on Highway 2, just past Roosevelt Road traffic stopped. I looked down at the temp and it was 85 degrees at 11:00 am. I knew it was going to get hot but was not looking forward to running the errands in the heat.

Grumbling to myself I looked up. There in the bright, clear blue sky was 7 bald eagles soaring and playing in the wind. Their bright white heads just glowed so clean looking. I just thought about how God sends entertainment and lessons all the time. So grumbling stopped and this song got stuck in the head that I just started singing it.

To God Be the Glory.


To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in.
Refrain

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood,
To every believer the promise of God;
The vilest offender who truly believes,
That moment from Jesus a pardon receives.

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

Great things He has taught us, great things He has done,
And great our rejoicing through Jesus the Son;
But purer, and higher, and greater will be
Our wonder, our transport, when Jesus we see.

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

rambles

Here it is Thursday and I am getting very nervous or even scared. I have pains back since Tuesday and going to Doctor in hour. I pray that they find out what is causing it or they go away.

Really having to trust God on this. I don't know His plans but hopefully I can serve Him through this.

Arrggggggh.

Been awhile.

So not much going on right now.

The past two Monday nights my great nephews and Heather came over and we went recycle bin diving. They are collecting can for church. We have gotten over 3 bags full each time. We also have been talking to people in the alleys of Everett.

Other than that Friday was great. Got to spend some time with friends. Dinner, shopping and talking. Fun

Saturday night was a Slurpee date with a coworker. We do this once a month. just hang out and gossip and drink slurpees. Still love the coca cola the best.


Pain has been better actually went 28 hours without pain and then have had 3 time it hurt. Just not as bad. Hopefully something will finally show up and then can be taken care of or disappear completely. I rally don't want to do the next step. Consult with surgeon and possible exploratory surgery. Yucky.

So not much happening. Just depending on God for guidance.

Wednesday note

Got results from Dr yesterday. Everything they looked for came back fine. One spot of fat on the liver less than mm. and small spot of arthritis on the lower back. Neither of these are the cause of pain.

So today at work I had three sharp pains in about 4 hours. I really don't want the next step but if it continues then maybe. Next step is consult with surgeon for exploratory surgery. I really don't want this but if the pain continues I just might have to.


It is time like this I really want a shoulder to cry on or a really good hug. Someday.

Decisions of getting older.

This week I have seen my friend and mother figure have to make decisions about her mom who has fallen in the month a couple of times (with many more before). She has broken a vertebrae and they are fusing it with super glue (ok surgical super glue) on Tuesday.

Paula had to make decision of where mom was going. Back to her apartment in Crista West, Crista assisted living, or nursing home. Grandma Pfaff hates the nursing home and is taking it all out on Paula.

Decision was made to assisted living. Paula never asked for help just asked Nancy and I if we wanted anything from the apartment. Nancy and Elizabeth went over on Thursday and picked up some stuff for Elizabeth as she prepared to head to college next year.

I told Nancy the I planned on being over on the peninsula on Saturday and if she wanted help then we would.

Nancy said the she saw Paula relax when she said I would give up time to help. Is something that others would not do? I feel that if I am able then help I will do.

So Saturday we aimed for the 8:40 ferry from Edmonds but was in line for the 9:40. Got to Poulsbo just after 10:45 and to the apartment we went.

So for 4 hours 4 of us moved the bed, dresser,table and chairs and a mess of boxes.
It was not a far move just across the parking lot. I was in pain alot of the time but I needed to keep busy.

After we got the last over we went to Red Robin. We talked about the decisions that are made to parents when they real can not make their decisions anymore.

I one sense I am relieved that those decisions were made years ago.

Family is important in many ways and decision about other family members they need to be united as one and not fight.

Nancy and I have the decisions concerning Doug and Paula as they get older and I have started talking to them about it.


After we were done Fort Worden was a goal. Then ferry ride to Keystone and south to home via Clinton.


Nice day.

Ugggggh

I am one who really does not like going to the doctors. But I go anyway. So Sunday I had a temp of 103.5 and no other symptoms. Monday 101 and still no other symptoms. Tuesday normal temp but stomach pains started. Went to work on Wednesday and about 4 times it felt like someone was kicking me with strong kicks. So leaving work decided to call the Doctors office and they got me in. With the normal temp, blood pressure actually down, and pulse good. She poked, pushed and listened and ordered blood work as well as peeing in the cup (have to say I had to go and filled the cup). She then said come back on Friday for results. Take ibophren for pain. I tell you it did not even dull the pain.

Pain slowly got somewhat bearable, but a dull constant pain settled in. Made it thru Thursday and then night came. Pain came back for hour or so.

Friday got work done and went to appointment. Arrived and had the temp, blood pressure and pulse done and again all normal. It is nice to finally be recognized as normal.

Dr. comes in and tells me Kidney, liver, pancreas,urinary, stomach all came back noraml ranges. So up on the table so she can poke push and probe again and this time more area's in pain. So Monday get to have a chest and abdominal CT scans.
Not only have to have one but two. I am trying not to worry but it happens.

So I get to think about all this all weekend long. UGGGGh. I pray for relief from pain and stress.

Staying home

I have come to the conclusion that being home sick is for the birds. There is nothing to do when you are tired. TV only has boring unless you like soap operas. judge shows, and talk shows. Oh to look forward to going back to work soon.

Weeks End

I have never been one who gets killer headaches. Usually I have to have hit my head hard to get one like this one have been. It sat between the eyes and pounded. Medications did not even dull it. Sleep touched it. Woke up this morning with just a little knock going not the pounding. Did I get this to have sympathy to all who get migraines? I will never make fun of someone who has a bad headache again.

On another note: Work today was great. I got to see Lake Ki, Lake Goodwin, Lake Martha, and warm beach 3 times today. My route was up north away from the Lynnwood/Edmonds area that can be bad driving on a Friday. The lakes looked so inviting to stop at and maybe wade in.

Just looking forward to the weekend : )

Sunshine

A long day continues. Had a few minutes to enjoy the sunshine at Legion Park.

New Day

It's a new day!!!!!


The day has gone so much better.!!! Long night leads to long day but my perpective is so much better. Prayer can do so much positive.


: )

Confusion, Befuddled, Bewildered.

Why is it so difficult to put into words what you want to say and do what you want to do? Why are some decisions harder than others? Should they not all be easy after all they should be based on how to do God's will?

This is something I am really struggling with. I am sometimes very shy even with my best friends and family.


I HATE THIS.


I cannot be honest with them or even talk to them. I will go out of the way to avoid them. This will beat me up for days. My mind will go through all sorts of thoughts and that gets me emotional. Why can I not be more open and say what I want to. I want to be more supportive of others. I can pray for them but talking is hard. Is it I don't want to be judged? I don't want to hear the truth. I don't want others opinions. I just don't know.


I want to do Gods will and be honoring to Him. Times like this I really question were do I stand with God? Why does He even care for me. I am so bad, so sinful. How can He ever forgive me.


I admire how others can be more open and speak their minds. I can think of what to say and it never comes out. I know that I should not envy others but there is so much others have to offer and me not much.

I need to trust in the Lord that He will guide me both in thoughts and actions to be honoring to Him in my life. I need to ask for forgiveness and Know that He is God.


So some day I will say what I want to say in a way that is good and not bad. In the meantime please forgive me for the shyness and just kick me to get me to open up if I seem to avoid you.

Tired

I never have imagined being so tired that you just drop off asleep were you are as an adult.
I have seen kids do this but I have not ever really done that. Last night I did I just sat on the bed and dropped off to sleep for 9 hours. That helped me survive work today. Which is along day. 8 1/2 hours at one job and then 1 1/2 at a second temp job. Bed is looking good again.

Back in Town

Boy five days go by fast when on vacation but not while at work. Just got home from Racine Minnesota. Down in the the southeast corner of the state.

During this trip was a lot of firsts for me. The first one that I got to go the farest east than I ever had been to LaCrosse Wisconsin. I also went to the Mall of America. A very big place and only walked a litte and had lunch there

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I also got to see fireflies every night. The farm is a corn and bean crop farm. Many animals. Cardinals, Killdeer, blue jays, wild turkeys, rabbits, deer, hawks, eagles, and of course masquitos. I only got 3 bites :)



Walked along the upper Mississippi. Not to wide or wild up here. Just flowing through trees.






Got to go into Iowa via a 4 wheeler. Very bumpy ride. Ann's Aunt lives in Minnesota but farm extends into Iowa. We had a blast bouncing and getting jarred down the trail to the Iowa river and then crossed a spring and was in Iowa. They have cows and I got to see and pet a day old calf. So much fun.

Then on Sunday I went to an auction. It was so much fun. I won a game and some glasses. Now I can get rid of some I don't like. As I stood there watching and listening to the auctoneer I thought how unique my mom and dad met at the Renton auction. We use to say that that dad was the highest bidder for her.
Then the flight home. We had to leave the farm around 12:30 pacific time and arrive at SeaTac at 8:05. We then hung out at Ann's aunt in Renton. Got home about 4 pm . Very long day but some much fun. So many memories.

Getting Ready

I am so excited!!!!! I got off early today thanks to my road supervisor who gave me a short shift. Off at noon. Got the cars oil changed, hair cut, errands run. But still have not packed.

I am trying to figure out the best way to pack my barb blanket, never mind the clothes, but my barb blanket. Do I roll it, fold it, stuff it? Soon I will be trying all of the above.

Had a get evening at the family picnic. My Aunt and cousins from Idaho came over for the week and a cousin from Whidbey Island came too. It was great to see all the 2nd and 3rd cousins play and not want to go home. It great to see Mike. He and I are the closest in age and growing up we did alot together. From running wild in Boise Idaho to touring Victoria Canada. My Aunt and I had a great chance to talk just the two of us. I guess when you knock on the bathroom door and she pulls you in you talk.

I even behaved and did not get sarcastic at my sister-in-law. She tried to get me but I did not fight back. This something I have been working on and probably always will be.

I have to get back to packing 4:30 comes early but I can not wait.

Blue Skies

I enjoy the Northwest. Blue skies are bright blue, Mountains are all different colors depending on the time of day. The view of Mount Rainier snow covered to the south and Mount Baker to the north. The green of all the trees. I can just say Ahhhhhh.

Just a fun time

So, Friday work ended. I saw the backup of traffic going north and sighed. Then I got a text from my Granite Falls friend. "Hey. meet me in Marysville Joann's and let shop." My reply Don't you realize it is a holiday weekend and traffic sucks" Her back " Get in your car and drive< Don't even think about not coming>"

So I ventured north. Traffic the back way was not bad I beat her to Joann's.

We shopped for about two hours. I got fabric for gifts. Strange I cannot wait to sew. To think three years ago I would not have even consider it.

I got some fun fabric for a baby gift. : )


Fun times with girlfriends at any age is a great time and memories are made.

The Baby Quilt

Here it is

Sewing

I have somewhat gotten into sewing. I don't want to do fancy clothes but quilts and crafty things.

I have finished my first quilt. It is a baby quilt. Far from perfect but I did it almost all on my own. I had help when cutting the fabric (Thanks Jeanne). My friend Ann was there to help the finishing it off.

I have started a larger one for me. Now that I finished a baby maybe this will be the incentive to finish the full size one. Goal. To finish the squares for the full size one by September 1st. I think that is doable.

So on September 1st I will post if they are done.

Feelings

This week has been a week of emotions that I do not want to acknowledge.

First is a coworker last Sunday witness a tragic accident of a horse that had stepped out of the trailer at a stop sign and the driver continued dragging the horse to death. My coworker drove up behind the truck/trailer after following a brown lines for about 2 miles. It took her driving around the truck and stopping for the the truck driver to know what had happened.

Since then Diane has not slept well having nightmares and at work she has had to be pulled in after a few hours on the road because she could not think straight. She has been crying and not eating. I am not sure how to help her. I suggested counseling because that helped me. My friends also helped. I want to do what she needs. I will help anyway I can even though right now it is just prayer.

I know I have never witnessed anything like that but her emotions and reactions brought back memories of my assault a couple of years ago.

It is amazing what your mind can do to you. I can totally understand the feelings that Diane is having and yet seem to have to relive them again. This time I know what to do and have not done that yet. For me there is more emotions going into play.

I am being pressured into meeting the girlfriend of a so called friend. She is visiting from South Carolina and wants to meet me. Both him and her are asking when I can meet her. I am not sure I want to I can visit online with no problem but face to face I just don't know.

Any suggestion on what to do?? I just don't know.

All these have been dwelling in my mind this week and I know that I have been rude to at least one person. Thank God she forgave me.

Lord help me be the person you want me to be and do Your will not mine.

Saturday

The week has been good. I started a new shift at work and hours have been good. Free time that I don't know what to do with. Have read 3 books this week while at work. Down time is good and boring.

Don't know what this weekend will be but heading out to start my Weekend.

Fish

I cleaned the fish tank today. Even changed the gravel. The water is so clean. Bubbles floating up and the fish playing in the bubbles. They are also seemly playing tag. One will be down low and as the others swim over head it will dart up and tag the others.

Sitting here listening to music and watching the fish swim. The frog (kermit) is just mellowing in the back with the algae eater.

There is just something so relaxing watching fish and listening to music. Yawn must be time for bed .....

Sunshine

Saturday so far a day of sunshine and walking. Walked to Sorticulture at Legion Park. Very wet ground to walk on but beautiful plants and art work. Saw a fuchsia the size of my palm of hand. Boy I remember popping the small ones and getting yelled at by mom as a kid. It was all I could do not to pop the big one, but I behaved.

I then drove to Arlington to Show and Shine car show. I was so great to see all the old cars shining so bright in the sunlight. I was taking pictures of a candy apple truck and overheard the people behind me say that my hair was the color of the truck and shiny too. It is kinda fun to have red hair. : ) My favorite was the old mustang.

I spent the rest of the day just wandering Arlington and Smokey Point. New gps, new gravel for aquarium. My fish are going to hate getting the aquarium cleaned but will love the new rocks.

And to think this just tops off the excellent evening with friends last night. A little shopping and ok braeaking a chicken at the store and then a good movie with laughter. Looking forward to Sunday and what it brings.

Hmmm

The song stuck in my head.




To God Be The Glory


To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in.

Refrain

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood,
To every believer the promise of God;
The vilest offender who truly believes,
That moment from Jesus a pardon receives.


Great things He has taught us, great things He has done,
And great our rejoicing through Jesus the Son;
But purer, and higher, and greater will be
Our wonder, our transport, when Jesus we see.

How do you say NO to God??

Why is easy to say no to God but when asked by other it is so hard?? I cannot say no to often to people when they ask for help. I love to help others. When God asks or pokes you the answer most of the time is NO. I don't have time, I don't want to do that.

I have been battling a situation that I kept saying no. God keeps poking and sending messages to answer. I spent my three day weekend last week in prayer and I relearned that it is not go to say NO to God.

The big lesson reminder was Jonah and the whale. I know that I did not want to disobey but that was what I had been doing.

So this weekend I took the step to follow Gods plan for me and talked to someone I had not face to face talked to since all hell broke loose in April.


God had everything planned out. So Sunday morning I wanted to talk to Jeanne about this but because of both of us were busy I did not.

I went to the gym and met up with the person I have ignored for 2 months. We worked out and then started talking. After hour and half I asked if we could go and get something to drink cold preferred. So we went to Safeways Starbucks and got drinks. While waiting for the drinks I went to buy TP and in line aBeca and Joel showed up and told me the Hiseys were coming to shop. This was good for me our hardest part of the talk was coming and I had some support if really needed.

I saw how God worked in me and I was able to remain calm, did not yell except for once, and was able to express views and ask and answer questions.

As I have heard alot lately This was my God thing. Lesson relearned don't say no to God.

Friendship

I knew our friendship would be forever,
the day I began thinking of you
as family.
Like family we don't question
whether or not we'll be there
for each other - we just are.

We've discovered a kinship -
a bond linking our hearts,
just like family.
No matter where we go or what we do,
we're never without each other's
loyalty, support, and caring.

That's friendship at its best.
Friendship that most people experience
once or twice in a lifetime, if they're lucky,
I, without question,
am one of the lucky ones
because, in you, "friend"
and "family" have come
to mean the same.

M.E. Miro.

A Hallmark card that says it all

Working

I love my job and am very grateful that I have a job. I enjoy helping disabled and the elderly get to where they want and need to go.I also enjoy not being tied to a desk. Yes I have traffic to deal with but the views are priceless at times.

What I am having a problem with is my coworkers who grip and complain about their hours or lack of hours. In getting a split shift once in a while. In the world today, with the economy the way it is should we not all be satisfied with what God has provided for us. I am. I see this being able to survive on my paycheck and not get into debt.

I am able to help others if needed. I can get around to where I want to go and when I want to. I have to listen to coworkers grip daily. I don't want to get into that habit. I just want to slap some common sense into them. Am I so different with this attitude of gratefulness??

God does provide.

The Ending Of A Three Day Weekend.

Boy, I have thoroughly enjoyed this weekend. Other than church it was just me and God. I turned down so many invitations from people to go and do something and I don't feel guilty at all.

I stayed home all day Saturday for a couple of reasons. One I just really did not want to go out. So cleaned my bedroom. Three bags to Value Village and 4 to the garbage. I have closet space and floor space.

I also got tickets for my July trip ordered. July 8 - 12 in Rochester Minnesota with my friend Ann to visit her Grandma and Dad. I am so looking forward to the trip. New state to take pictures in. I hope there will be a good midwest storm while we are there too.

Reason 2 is I was being bugged by a friend (yes the jerk) to come over and I refused. He then called and we talked and ended the call with me yelling at him. I have to day it felt good.

Sunday started with me actually being late for Sunday School. When I went in it had flooded the downstairs where it always does. So I helped clean out and mop up.

After church I had a couple of errands Costco and shopping. Then laundry. That is an experience in its own.

So doing laundry on a Sunday afternoon is interesting. You have a couple of mothers with little kids, and then the men who have no idea how to do the laundry. I can say I was entertained.

Sunday ended with a visit to Erika at work to plan a joke on the road supervisor Steve. I see toilet paper in the future on his vehicle.

Monday the bonus day. Memorial day. Thanks to all who have served or are serving to protect our country and others.

I rearranged the kitchen back wall and living room. 9 hours of work. I gave up shopping with a friend.

In all being at home with little contact with others made me really spend time with God. I have a new sense of where to go on in life. Have let go of old stuff and ready for the new directions. My attitude is much better than it has been. So I should be a better person out in the world.


Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth. Psalms 8:1

I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart. I will tell of all your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice in you. I will sing praise to your name O Most High. Psalm 9:1 & 2

Thank you God for all.

Memorial Weekend

Oh a three day weekend. What to do? Picnic, camp, definitely find somewhere to go and photo. Still what to do with it raining.


I felt at work today like I took 6 showers and only one I used soap and shampoo and that was at 4:30 before work. It was bad enough to drive in quite a bit of water, both on the ground and falling from the sky, but to have to be outside at every stop got cold. God has a sense of humor for every time I had to use the lift on the bus it poured cats and dogs. I felt sorry for the people on the lift with me being short I cannot use an umbrella I would poke them in the eye as I raise them up. So they also had a shower. When I got home it was another shower and hot cocoa. So much better : )

The grey sky just kept everything wet and cold feeling making it seem like March. I believe that warm weather will be coming when?? I don't know.

I am getting to go on a vacation to Minnesota. Never have been there. I am so looking forward to being on the farm and taking pictures. I am going with a friend to visit her grandma and dad. I have meant her dad before. I also get to meet her aunt and uncle and possibly go into Iowa. So does Minnesota get the rainstorms I have heard about? I hope so I really want to experience and get pics of one.

Looking forward to fun times this year. Taking a positive approach. Bought a tent, have a sleeping bag. Just might have to take off and camp somewhere.

Well timer went off time to see how dinner is doing.

Wednesday

Happy Wednesday

It is mid work week. Not much in life going on right now. Off to work

Saturday

What a week. I am so glad it is the week end. I have had bad traffic, bad dispatchers, great weather to watch, friends that got married, friends who accomplished a goal of running a 1/2 marathon and my apt to clean.

It is spring cleaning. Living room done except for vacuuming. So as I changed from jeans to shorts to clean and I lost my phone. After 2 hours looking for it I emailed a friend to call or text me and she called. I could hear the phone but could not find it. About an hour later another friend texted me and I finally found it in the pocket of the jeans in the luandery basket under the dirty towels. Good thing I did not do laundry today.

I also have been in thought and prayer about how to respond to a person. He emailed this week a couple of times and I responded to the first one with a very short answer. His friend has asked me to talk to him and that she would like to meet me in June when she comes to visit. She also said that my unfriending him on facebook hurt him. I did ask him why he did not ask me why. He said my friends convinced me to or I was mad at him. I told him it was what he was posting that I felt targeted. God has not given me clear insight yet on what to do.

So week end thank you for coming and I look forward to the start of the next week.

Wedensday

What a beautiful day. Woke up late and ran to work almost late for work but got here in time. The blue sky and sunshine with the clouds floating along. Weekend I hope will be as nice.

Tuesday's Ramblings

The week has started. Monday was a day that started being tired but would not have change what I did Sunday for anything. To do something so simple and yet do it so stupidly is embarrassing and yet painful. How many times you open door walk out and the turn to get back in?? It only takes one time to slam into the edge of the door so hard you bruise your shoulder. I then tried to blow it off and work out. So rode the bike and started in on the weights. Only could do the legs. Ice become a friend Monday night.

When I got home and open email and get an email from a so called friend. Why now does he have to be somewhat considerate in his email?? Uggggh. The thoughts of what to do. Do I email back. Do I ignore? Do I be mean in a response or considerate back?

So on Tuesday I get a message from a mutual friend that makes me rethink all the questions above. I have yet to answer either one.

Oh God what is the christian responce that I should have. I remember the painful things that were written. The hurt and anger are still there, Not as strong but there. What Lord do I need to do??

I have many people telling me their view points on this. Which one should I listen to? Are any of them right? Do I listen to any at all? How to decide is all part of the learning experience of this time in my life. I will listen to those who have been there supporting and loving me. I cannot thank them enough.

Friday

Friday done. Got a big smile on. Had my my teeth cleaned first thing this morning. Nothing like clean smooth teeth. No cavities.

Lawn mowed and weed wacked. I enjoyed the drive to Granite Falls. Put the mp3 player in the pocket, ear plugs in and listed to music as I mowed and weed wacked.

On to Shoreline to Nancy's. Traffic was good going south but north looked bad. Got Elizabeths birthday present to her finally. Visited and then backroads north. Got to visit my friends for the rest of the evening.


what a good day.

Weekend ending

It is the begining of a three day weekend. Oh what to do?? It will start with a dental cleaning. I cannot wait for the smooth clean feeling of the teeth.

So what's next. I quess that I will head to Granite Falls and mow and weed wack. Outdoor exercise in the fresh air and sunshine. Then drive to my sister's in Shoreline. Then???????freedom to do anything.

Picture to take :) Maybe people to see.

I think I need to get up and get started.

Mothers Day

As I sat in church this morning and was turning the pages in my bible to the passage a piece of paper fell out into my lap. It was a poem the I got May 9, 1974 at Hillcrest for Mother's day.

At Mother's Knee

"I have worshipped in churches and chapels,
I've prayed in the busy street,
I have sought my God and have found Him
Where the waves of the ocean beat.
I have knelt int the silent forest,
In the shade of some ancient tree;
But the dearest of all my alters,
Was raised at my mother's knee.

I have listened to God in His temple;
I've caught His voice in the crowd:
U have heard Him speak when the breakers
Were booming logn and loud'
Where the winds play soft in the tree tops
My Father has talked to me;
But I never have heard Him clearer
Then I did at my mother's knee.

God make me the woman of her vision.
and purge me of selfishness!
God keep my true to her standards,
and help me live to bless!!
God hallow the holy impress
of the days that used to be;
and keep me a pilgrim forever
tho the shrine at my mother's knee."

How many times growning up have I found myself on moms lap. Whether I was crying over something, or just because. Her lap or shoulder was a comfort.

Mother's Day

As Mothers day gets closer I am writing to remember my mom. I only had her for 18 years. At times I have felt cheated that I did not have her physically in my life longer but God knows when to bring people home.

My mom had a great sense of humor. April fools day she lived to get my brother back. My sister and I were more than once asked to help her get him back. And to think it all started with him switching the salt with the sugar and our neighbor got a salty cup of coffee.

She also loved to have people just drop by and visit. The coffee pot was always on.

My mom loved flowers. Roses were her favorite. We had many rose bushes as well as other flowers. We had a huge snowball tree that was beautiful. Every year we would have snowball fights with the flowers. Lilacs were another favorite.

Birds were her favorite animal. She loved seagulls. We had a few birds in the house growing up as well as a dog or two.

Being the youngest of five, I did get to learn from the others. That kept me out of trouble more than once. What made mom mad. I never got a spanking but watched my siblings get some from her or if it was really bad Dad got involved. I learned to never lie. She could always tell when we lied. Also own up to mistakes. Admit when you screwed up and not lie about it.

I have always been entertained with the way my dad and her would have a fight. Mom would yell at dad and he would just say "Yes dear, I wont do that again" which would make her mad. I know they also never went to bed mad at each other and made sure we all learned that too.

So as I remember little things about mom, I might post more.

I don't know if my life would have been much different if she had been around longer or not. I just hope that I have done some things in my life that she would have been proud of me. Love you mom.

One month

It has been a month since "hell broke loose". Many decisions were made. I am so happy to say This week was the change. I am seriously happy where I am in life being Me.

Still don't understand some things but willing to accept the position the thoughts are in. It is not me to understand other people but to understand me for what God has given me and doing with me. On with life.

Saturday

I actually slept in until 5 today. Such a different 1 hour makes. Not much on the plans for today but it was a productive day. Went Monroe and got together with a friend and shopped at Ben Franklin's. Gotta love craft stores then onto Goodwill. Yep checked out the new one in Monroe. Bought a photo album.

My friend has asked me to take the pictures at her daughters wedding in June. I know I am not that good but willing to try. So any ideas will be welcome for different or unique shots. Please let me know of them.

Went to leave and the car went east instead of west.
Drove to Leavenworth. Was not the plan but God used the time to show His creation and guidance. The greens of the trees from yellow green to the dark emerald green was beautiful. The rushing water of the rivers, the snow that was packed on the side of the road and falling from the sky are all reminders from God this is His world and He alone made it we are just caretakers. He allows the time in the car for me to be a time to pray and seek guidance. Answers came quickly.

Got home and chatted with my friend and we are good. I knew we would be but mind games play never like real life. I have lost one friend this last month and did not want to have problems with my best friend. God helps us all. So much better now.

Weeks End

It has been a long week. I have been reminded again that actions do speak louder than words. How could I have tried to help someone and in the end they felt inadequate and a failure.
Why do we always seem to step on peoples toes. I am upset that I hurt a friend and don't know how to fix it.

My life seems to be falling apart and I just help it along.

Lord help me to be yours and help my friend as you see fit.

Monday

So the start of a new week and I decided to start it with a new attitude. No more down and out in with up and happy times. It does help to talk to someone. That someone is a very special lady. She helped me see things in a different light and perspective. It has been so nice to want to smile and be happy again. No more letting others get me down. He can be down on his own. Out of my life. yahoo.....

Weeks End

It is Saturday Morning. This week has been a rough one. Traffic was odd. Mornings that should have been crowded were open and the times of day when open was packed. Snohomish county you are truely a convergence zone.

I had a good experience on Wednesday but still have rough times. Why do people become insensitive about others? Why do they take it out on other? Can they not accept there emotions and actions and not blame others? What does it take to forgive and move on? A bunch of unanswerable questions.
I know that I need to forgive and go on with MY life as Jesus would want me to. Why is that to hard?

So going to experience this Saturday.

Tuesday

Started this morning determined to be more happy and positive. It has been almost a good day. I have really started letting go of stress and accepting what is be what is. So why does my right arm muscle hurt extremely bad. Shoulder too. I just want to have a good day and this one almost was it.

weekend

After two weeks of stressful times I took time to do what I wanted to do. Tulips, pictures and short road trip. Good Saturday morning. Sunday church and then the rest of the day with my friend. That means I am ready for the week. Less stress here I come.

Saturday afternoon

Went up to take pictures of the tulips in the Mount Vernon area this morning but in a way to relive stress I came home and clean the inside of our church bus. Feeling a little less stressed but some still there.

Stress

I have had stress the last few weeks and just last night thought about how my body is dealing with the stress.

There has been a headache just enought to be noticed but not enough for meds. Then the neck has been tight and a new pop when turning the head that had never been there before. And of course the nervous stomach.

If I could just let it go. Easier said then done. Oh well, Saturday time to see about soon work and play.

Questions of Life

It has been a very interesting last two weeks. How many emotions do people go through in a week?

I think I have had the full range of emotions and am trying hard not to dewell on the negative ones and live with the positive ones. Boy that is hard. So many bad thoughts can come at times. I will be nice. I will be nice. I will not stoop the the low level of the other one. God help me to do that.

Sunday

Weekend is ending. Boy this week was a trip of emotions. I love my friends.

I hope everyone has that special friend that knows you better than you know yourself. My friend has been there this week with support in many ways. She has talked to me, prayed for me, defended me, and just been there. What more can you ask for. I just hope that I am there for her.

Saturday's journey

So Saturday is ending. What a great day. Walked in the MS walk around the Tulalip casino and Seattle outlet stores. It was fun to walk with friends.

Then just hung out with friends until Helped Timothy at church for the Dinner and Variety show. Helped him cook, serve and clean up. Just the type of day I needed to end my week.

The Start

Never thought I would want to write so others could read what I am thinking.
So I don't have much excitement in life right now. Just living day to day.