After spending the day with my cats this hymn came to mind.

So I research a little.  Written by St, Francis of Assisi.  He had a great love of nature.   So many of the nature written in the hymn we have here in the Pacific Northwest.  

Oh praise to God for all nature.

All Creatures Of Our God And King Hymn

All creatures of our God and King
Lift up your voice and with us sing,
Alleluia! Alleluia!
Thou burning sun with golden beam,
Thou silver moon with softer gleam!

Refrain

O praise Him! O praise Him!
Alleluia! Alleluia! Alleluia!

Thou rushing wind that art so strong
Ye clouds that sail in Heaven along,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou rising moon, in praise rejoice,
Ye lights of evening, find a voice!

Refrain

Thou flowing water, pure and clear,
Make music for thy Lord to hear,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou fire so masterful and bright,
That givest man both warmth and light.

Refrain

Dear mother earth, who day by day
Unfoldest blessings on our way,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
The flowers and fruits that in thee grow,
Let them His glory also show.

Refrain

And all ye men of tender heart,
Forgiving others, take your part,
O sing ye! Alleluia!
Ye who long pain and sorrow bear,
Praise God and on Him cast your care!

Refrain

And thou most kind and gentle Death,
Waiting to hush our latest breath,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou leadest home the child of God,
And Christ our Lord the way hath trod.

Refrain

Let all things their Creator bless,
And worship Him in humbleness,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Praise, praise the Father, praise the Son,
And praise the Spirit, Three in One!

Refrain

Reading and thinking.

Have you ever read something that just made you feel that it was written just for you?   I have.  

I am reading The God who sees you by Tammy Maltby and Anne Christian Buchanan.  

There is a chapter that really hit home.   That even in the darkest moment of my life  God was there.  God constructed my life but gave me choices.   We all make wrong choices but for me, my wrong choices really bug me.  How could I have not seen how my choice was going to play out.  I know that God is there at all times.  He sees what no one else sees.  

We all hide things from others.  I know I do.  God knows it all.   He is always prepared to be there for me.  Nothing I do can be kept from God.  

Does God sit back and shakes His head at our lives.  No He is there with open arms to give the best hugs.  He forgives us for all our sins.

I have been so looking forward to the rest of the book until I saw the next chapter.  Just the title put tears in my eyes.    You're Worth It.   This is what the Gospels are about. The God of the universe see me as someone worth it all.  Even death of His son on the cross.   The chapter ends with this "God really does see you - your past, your present and your future, your possibilities,He is painfully aware of your sins and failures but rejoices over you hidden good deeds and best intents."

Wow think about this.   As the Father He made you and adopted you into His family.
As the Son He thought you were worth dying for.   As the Spirit, He chooses to live within you.   Wow.

It has been awhile

Oh blog I have ignored  you.  It has been awhile since I posted anything.  It is not that I don't have anything to say but what do I want to say for others to read.

I have been out around the county taking pictures.  I have been home sewing and playing with Katie Ann and Lucky,  my cats.  I have been going to doctor appointments.  I have been worshiping my God who sees me for what He wants me to be. Ok that came from the devotional I have started reading.

It is one of the best times in the Pacific Northwest.   We get to see blue skies, snow covered mountains both the Olympics and the Cascades.  Throw in Puget Sound.   So many different shades of blue, with white caps on the water at times.

Now add the brilliant colors of the trees and grass.  So many different greens.  Some dark green others yellow light green.  With the flowers colors that add an assortment of colors,   Red, purple, blue, yellow.  Light or dark.  Others mixed colors.  All painted by God.

There is so much I want to take pictures of.   I have been trying to take more people pictures.   I just am not comfortable with that but people have been encouraging me.

I have been out walking more but still have pain.   I really hope that I get results from tests soon.

So back to real life.    Trying to live for God, serving Him and showing Him to others.

Is normal ever gonna come back?

I so want to feel normal.   I have been home sick since Monday afternoon.   Any time I look up or sit up I get dizzy.  Went to Urgent Care on Tuesday on the advice of my Dr. and He was the attending Dr. Ok he is a PA but having my dr leave He is the one assigned and I do like him.   So an inner ear problem diagnosed and pills to not make me dizzy have left me feeling so different.   I don't like it.   I have no energy, and naps are looked forward to.

Now it is Thursday and I had to call out for Friday so wanting human contact.   My cats have been entertainment as well as heating pads during naps.    I want to be normal.   I want the world to stop spinning around when I get up.     

Ok rambling done.

A day of the year I just don't like

Have you a day that you just don't like?   April 5th is that for me.  Ok  the good is my nephew Ben was born on the 5th of April. 30 years ago.

The not so good.   When I was in first grade I hurt my ankle playing on a log with the neighbor boy.  I got off and it rolled on my ankle and a knot went down to the bone.  So 7 internal and 7 external stitches later I got to hop around for a few days.

Then in 1982 on April 5th I was playing basketball at youth group and came down on the side of my ankle and pulled the ligaments.   So crutches for a week and then a walking cast for 5 weeks, and graduation coming up I hated the cast.   The old plaster one.  

Then in 1996 again on April 5th my Plymouth Voyager, my first new car.  Even though it was 10 years old got totaled when a man hit me.  Oh how I miss the van.


Last year on April 5th   I had to put my kitten Kyzer down.  The first pet I had to make the decision to put down.    RIP Kyzer.
 

I really don't hate the day just don't care for it.

So last weekend I got the prividlege to take pictures at my friends, daughters wedding.   I got to do my favorite activity.   Photography.  

 Rehearsal had family members and the wedding party.    Fun times and set up.  

Also a great sunset that night

The Groom

The Bride

The couple

The girls 

the guys

In the woods

The wind was cold but blue skies and sunshine.

Fun times for the camera 

Mr and Mrs

the color purple

first dance

With a full day of activities the pictures, the wedding, the reception. Take down.  All were tired but very happy.    

Life's Ups and Downs

What a week so far.  It has been emotionally up and down.

Monday was pretty good.   I got a route out of Smokey Point and saw people I have not seen in awhile.

Tuesday was going pretty good.  I got to have lunch with Carla.  Let's just say lunch was fun.

We all have people in our lives that care enough to make you look them in the eye while they lecture you.   Yes that happened at lunch.   Thank you Judy for caring so much you pulled the Mother Card out and lectured.  

Yes I know I need to take care of me but sometimes I can tolerate pain very well.   Not for 8 months.   The dull constant pain just wears on you.    To say the least I had a very bad attitude the rest of the day.  I did get a appointment scheduled.    

Wednesday totally uneventful.  Day went well. Night slept well.

Then Thursday happened.  I had my Dr appointment for 4:20 today and had to get more lab work done before that so I only worked a half a day.   Got to Group Health and picked up prescriptions and got the ticket for the lab.  Waited for 10 minutes.  During that time I got a call from Group Health  my Dr went home sick and my appointment would have to be rescheduled.   So go the lab work done.  To vials of blood taken.  Then down the hall to the Dr window.  The next appointment he had was for a week from Friday (30th).  I took it.   Really, you call to reschedule and when you do it is a week away.    I am not looking forward to the unanswered pain.  

Emotionally, I finally allowed my self to break down and cry, scream, slam doors, and love my cats.  

I relive some of the stress I needed to go to Snohomish and get cat food.   Bridges Pets is like a small zoo.  I picked up the food and then just wandered.  As I wandered my phone beeped.  My sister texted to see what was up. I told her and she gave me permission to scream.   As I went into the reptile room the worker there was pulling out the python, he asked if I would like to hold it.   I did.   What an experience.  The last snake I held was a garter snake.      I toured the fish section and wandered out to the birds and rodents.  They had a couple of dogs.    Bought my stuff and headed to the car.    I needed something to eat.  

Drove to Lake Stevens and visited Taco Time.   While there my friend texted me.   I have to say she is the one person I can talk to even if it is text or email.

So with my sister, My best friend, all my coworkers and cousin all supporting me I still needed to scream.   Of to Langus park.  

I will usually   walk here with my camera, but no camera today.   I used this time to walk with God and have a conversation.    It was productive and very tiring.  

There are sometimes in my life that I don't like being alone.   This is one.   A shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen.   I know that my family and friends are there but I hate to ask.  So with a teddy bear and two cats a good cry.    Things are looking up.
 God is so good for the people in my life.    Thank you all